EP50 Abby Rose | From U.S. Marine to Million-View Creator

Unknown 00:00:00:01 00:00:07:14,Today's guest has lived a very unique life. She served in the United States Marine Corps. Transition into content creation.

Unknown 00:00:07:14 00:00:12:10,Built a huge following online. And she's become an advocate for veterans and mental health.

Unknown 00:00:12:10 00:00:23:16,Please welcome the beautiful Abby Rose. I feel like this is like the entering of a UFC fight.

Unknown 00:00:23:18 00:00:40:13,Well, like, are we fighting and we talking? Honestly, I've never seen a UFC fight, so I wouldn't know. They, like, go up, like, stand up and then sometimes they can. Well you're. Oh, okay. No, no. Sorry. Not the guys. I don't think I've seen the guys because yet. But the women like when you say that, I don't know.

Unknown 00:00:40:13 00:01:05:06,I've seen this real that keeps popping up. I don't know if you know. Can peel. No. Oh. Anyways, there are two comedians, and they all. They just do crazy. Oh, wait, the one guys. No no no no. They have nothing to do with gunning or anything like that. I'll send you know it because. And then it's their actors and then they're doing a skit and then they're like so close to each other, and then the guy just ends up kissing him, and then they crack up.

Unknown 00:01:05:06 00:01:25:05,So that's what I reminded me. Yeah. Thank you for being here. Abby, thank you so much for having me. Of course. We met two years ago at Xbiz. I haven't seen you. And then I saw you at Xbiz again this year. And here we are today. So this is exciting. Yay! Love you, love you. And her and her social media videos.

Unknown 00:01:25:07 00:01:48:23,My watermelon videos. I have one out ready to get cut. All right, so I like to start a little bit. Get to know you before social media. So what was young Abby like? Oh, I was just a tomboy. Okay. Yeah. I had, like, literally short hair. I wore boy clothes. And then I kind of grew out of that stage and went into, like, a weird kid phase.

Unknown 00:01:49:00 00:02:00:03,Like the emo like scene girl. I gotta say, I'm thankful I never got to that emo phase. I never did it, but. Sorry. Go on. I never had on.

Unknown 00:02:00:05 00:02:19:08,I'm sorry, but you did have that beautiful long hair. Yeah, I was just up there, my Myspace having, like, my little emo friends and my top ten, and it's funny. Yeah, it was so I was just always like, a odd character. I still am, like, I've been. I move, like, every 3 to 6 months my whole life. Really.

Unknown 00:02:19:10 00:02:43:03,Did you grow up? I grew up like mostly Colorado is where I claim. But again, like, I moved so much that I don't really, like, have a home necessarily. So I think that made me super adaptable to whoever I'm around, which I love that part about it. But yeah, it was a little bit like we are not having a core group of friends growing up and stuff like that.

Unknown 00:02:43:05 00:02:59:19,So yeah. And do you mind me asking why were you always moving around? Yeah. So a lot of it was because my brother, my brother has like pretty severe mental health. My mom also kind of likes to move a good amount. Like, we'll find a little reason to move, and then just my dad getting new jobs or whatever.

Unknown 00:02:59:19 00:03:22:02,So just random reasons. Okay. Interesting. Yeah, I did see you post about your brother a lot. We don't need to get into that. But then you went into the Marines? Yes. So what was the thought process? Why did you want to join the Marines? Well, I am a little crazy, okay? And I, like, get bored really easily. So I was actually a personal trainer before that.

Unknown 00:03:22:02 00:03:44:03,I've had, like, a million jobs. But right before the Marine Corps, I was a personal trainer. And life was just too good at the Marines. No, as a personal trainer, I'm like living in California. I have like, like a beautiful boyfriend. Like everything was going good. I'm like, let's fuck this up. Let's, let's join the military, which I know nothing about.

Unknown 00:03:44:04 00:04:09:13,And like, it was just like a random decision, pretty much. Yeah. I mean, I just I wanted to, like, be more. I felt like personal training definitely wasn't my calling. And I just needed that next step. And I was like, I want to do something that I feel purpose. Like I'm like, yeah, like doing something worthwhile. And like, you know, in America we're all like, brought up to think that, like, the military is like serving your country.

Unknown 00:04:09:14 00:04:33:18,Like giving back. I'm like, totally different mindset now. Yeah. I want to say I'm like anti-military, but I'm like, I don't believe in us killing other human beings for the sake of the government and the more powerful. So yeah, I am like, proud of my, like, the people that I served with in my service, but I definitely have a different.

Unknown 00:04:33:19 00:04:53:08,Yeah. And thought of it. How long were you serving? Four years. Wow. Yeah. Which is the minimum. Really? Yeah. I think when Obama was president, they had where you could get out at two years and still get your benefits and stuff because they had like too many people or something. But for in general, it's four years. Okay. So once you do four years you get benefits.

Unknown 00:04:53:08 00:05:13:06,I'm Canadian so like I don't know how this works. Okay. So that's like a that's that I know I didn't even know about benefits really where like but I'm so fucking happy like for sure. Yeah I do not pay property taxes on my house. What. Yeah. That's right there in itself. Join the army. Yo, seriously? I'm going. Yeah.

Unknown 00:05:13:07 00:05:35:14,I think you can be like, how old are you? I'm 38. Yeah, I think it's 40. Is the cutoff. Oh, really? Even we're not even, like, fully American citizens. I don't I don't even know if I can join. Why would you? I'm sorry. Like, with this current administration, like. Yeah. The Canadians. Yeah. But for years, four years.

Unknown 00:05:35:15 00:05:55:14,So you're. How does that work? Are you living, like, on a, like, in a base or something, or do you get to go home or. So, yeah. You live in the barracks when you first start. I did end up getting married in the military. Okay. So then we lived out in our own little home. But while while I was single, I lived in the barracks.

Unknown 00:05:55:15 00:06:17:05,It's like disgusting. It's. There's, like, cockroaches everywhere. Black mold everywhere. Oh, God. It's it's pretty crazy, like, got to toughen you up, you know? Yeah. Years. Yeah. Shoot. And what was your job at the military? I was in artillery, so I was actually one of three women. We were the first three women ever. Oh, wow. To do that job in the history of the.

Unknown 00:06:17:08 00:06:31:21,Okay, I'm going to ask you what that even is, because I have no idea what. Yeah, I didn't know what it was either. I got out of boot camp and I had to Google it. But what did you say? Artillery. Artillery? Okay, I'll tell you. Yeah, it's like a big cannon. Okay. Like, literally like the size of this house.

Unknown 00:06:31:21 00:06:49:12,And what do you do? So there's a bunch of different positions. It's like a team. Okay. And you all work together to fire the cannon. Oh, shoot. Yeah. Did you ever have to fire it? Yeah. Oh, yeah. Like, I mean, in training and stuff. Yeah. One time I like if the rounds catch on fire, like you're fucking done.

Unknown 00:06:49:16 00:07:09:14,Like people have died from that. More people die in military training, I think, than combat. I'm not 100% sure on that, but I remember people saying that. But I look over to my right side and I see fire on the cannon. Oh my God, bitch, I never ran so fucking fast in my life. And everybody's like, back then.

Unknown 00:07:09:14 00:07:26:10,My last name was Lily because I was married and they're like, Lily. Lily. Like, slow down. You're like, no fucking run. Like they didn't get the concept. Like we are going to fucking explode if this goes off. Oh, man. But they end up putting it out and it was fine, but that's great. Did you ever get deployed?

Unknown 00:07:26:11 00:07:47:13,I did, yes. Where were you? I went to Syria. And front door. Yeah. You were like actual war. So the the people before us, the group before us, they actually shot the most rounds of in history in Syria. So they kind of like, took care of business. So we just went. So we didn't win. Yeah. We really didn't do shit.

Unknown 00:07:47:14 00:08:04:17,My my my like he's like a younger. All the guys are younger than me. I joined when I was a little older. How old were you when you joined? I was 24. And they all joined when they were 18, 18. So there's like 18 year old. He's like, I fucking had somebody shoot at me. And when I was and like when I was on duty, I'm like, no, the fuck you didn't.

Unknown 00:08:04:19 00:08:31:19,So supposedly there was the one thing, but I doubt it. Yeah. So yeah. And I'm so thankful for that because like I said, like, now I'm such a hippie. Like, I love, like, I think we should all respect each other as humans and like, human life is so precious. And like, especially seeing with what's going on now with so many like, civilians dying from the war and stuff, like in like children and stuff.

Unknown 00:08:31:19 00:08:51:06,It's just so sad. So I think the universe new like this bitch cannot handle. I would have done it because that was my job. And they really do brainwash you in the military. To think like killing is fine. Really. So I would have detecting your country, right? Exactly. But, like, do you agree with what you're protecting? That's the thing.

Unknown 00:08:51:06 00:09:07:22,And you don't talk about politics at all in the military like I was young. I mean, I was older compared to the rest, but I didn't know. I didn't even, like, barely know who the president of the United States was at the time. You know, like, I was so young. I'm just like, I'm just naive, fun, like being told, like you're a fucking badass.

Unknown 00:09:08:00 00:09:25:22,Like, yeah, we're gonna go to fucking war and we're gonna fuck shit up and like, it's like all very like, well, yeah, if you stay in a place long enough and then you have people, you know. Yeah, you got this. You're badass. This and that. Like a place of your mind. I'm not gonna say a cult, but, like, you know what I mean?

Unknown 00:09:25:23 00:09:45:01,It. It's like it's very difficult. As, like, all like with with with what we do in content creation. Right? Like we have. Oh, my God, you're so pretty. You're like. And then it gets to your head sometimes, right? You're like, it's all. It's all where you are. Like you are your environment and what you surround yourself with. I definitely believe that.

Unknown 00:09:45:07 00:10:11:10,Do you have any, like, crazy stories other than your Canyon Canyon about the military? Yeah, I mean, a lot actually. Yeah. But I, I would say like the craziest thing that ever happened to me was just hitting the fleet and thinking the fleet is when you're like, your job. So, like, corporate world training, you go through your training and then you go to your job.

Unknown 00:10:11:10 00:10:30:17,So in military you do that to you go through training and then you go to your job. So I'm thinking by the time I get to my actual job, things are going to be like more chill. I get there, this guy named Corporal Boden, he sits us in the room, the moldy room, and he's like, Arnie, all homosexuals.

Unknown 00:10:30:19 00:10:53:05,I was like, no, you have to like, yeah, like no corporal, like Colt shit culture. No, corporal. And they're like, good. Because I fucking make fun of homosexuals. And I don't want any of y'all pussies getting offended. And like, I was just like, damn. Like, what did I join? Like, this is crazy. And then, like, I'm running. I'm like, good at running, actually.

Unknown 00:10:53:06 00:11:07:20,Like, I was keeping up and I'm little, like, I'm not little, only more. But I used to be little. I used to weigh, like, only 115. Oh, God. And I'm a fast, fast, but I want. I run a bitch. This guy is like, fuck you, bitch. We don't fucking want you here. You're gonna fucking hold everybody back. Look at you.

Unknown 00:11:07:21 00:11:28:09,You're already falling out. I'm like, actually, I'm really not falling out, like, just fine. And just like, the whole time was like, they did not want us there. Like, really? I feel like if I were in your position, like, I could never join the military because if somebody spoke to me like that, I just slap him in the face, like I'm way too emotional and I can't really control my emotions.

Unknown 00:11:28:12 00:11:46:22,Right? Amen. He's like, yeah, I've been in the face of it. I like it. But there are there are a lot of homosexuals in the army now. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Like nobody like, ever said that they were gay in my unit, but there were I mean, if I was, if I was, I would definitely join the Army. Yeah, I know that's like the place to be boys are.

Unknown 00:11:46:22 00:12:05:05,Yeah. And I was like a kid in the candy store. I do like the man in uniform. Lot of, like, you know. So that's like why they didn't want women joining clubs. Not like this, but like this going on. That's why they didn't want it. Because, like, they were worried that we're going to be a distraction this and that.

Unknown 00:12:05:07 00:12:21:12,I think if it was like half and half, yeah, it would be better for sure. But yeah, one girl like three girls are going to be like to, to get it. Who was you know. Yeah. And like guys are weird. Like when they want to fuck you. They're so nice. Yeah. But when you say no now, they're like, oh, you don't deserve to be here.

Unknown 00:12:21:12 00:12:46:03,You're not a real marine. Like you're fucking trash. Like, if I would have fucked him, he would have been sweet. Yeah, but I can't fuck them all. Yeah I wouldn't that couldn't. It didn't have the time. But yeah, I did have some fun like time with guys. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It must be emotionally mentally difficult, right. To be in the Army and have, you know, all these people on top of your head, like giving you orders and.

Unknown 00:12:46:05 00:13:12:03,Yeah. So the military is actually when I got diagnosed as bipolar, okay. Because I did I went through a really high, high of being manic. And I actually passed section chief scores. And I was like studying like all the time. And it's really it's a really hard course to pass. So I passed that. And then this guy I actually dated and then broke up with like basically went to my first art and said that like they passed me through, which they didn't.

Unknown 00:13:12:05 00:13:33:12,And that just really fucked with my head because I felt like I had worked so hard to, like, prove that I'm worth being here. And then like, people, I just you can just sense presence that nobody like respects you, you know? And it was because I slept with him. So like, that's what sucked too. And I got it did fuck with my head.

Unknown 00:13:33:14 00:13:52:15,It did. And so I got pretty depressed. And so I had to, like, check myself into the hospital. No. And then that's when they, like, did, like a whole evaluation on me and like, diagnosed with bipolar. So what like, I mean, we all hear about people who are bipolar or diagnosed. So what is it exactly for someone who doesn't understand.

Unknown 00:13:52:16 00:14:15:06,Yeah. So people think it's just like mood swings, which is really not at all that that's more BPD or something else. It's like just personality disorder or something. But bipolar is when you become manic, and being manic is almost like being high, like you're in an altered state of mind, like chemically, like your brain is actually chemically different.

Unknown 00:14:15:07 00:14:36:23,Yeah. And you think you can do everything. It's actually like in a lot of ways, a superpower and a lot of, like, actresses. And you are. Yeah. Or bipolar because it gives you that drive. And like, you don't need sleep and you just are like, it's almost like that one pill, the limitless movie where you take a pill.

Unknown 00:14:37:01 00:14:55:17,Yes. Where he speaks all the languages. Bradley Cooper, you're super smart. It's a superpower. And then. But your brain can only handle so much of that. So then when that switch is off, you go into depression. And that's when people get like, bipolar. People have a way, like a higher chance of committing suicide, really, in that. That's okay.

Unknown 00:14:55:19 00:15:20:18,Yeah. Because I didn't even I did think it was basically just mood swings. Yeah. Like I'm not even like a mean person. Yeah. I'm just mean when I, the people think like, if someone's like a bitch. Yeah. Random. Like they go from being really nice to being a bitch that that's bipolar, but it's not. Yeah. Interesting. Okay, so leaving the military, was it difficult for you to transition back into civilian life?

Unknown 00:15:20:20 00:15:41:06,I had started a nonprofit while I was in the military called the Happy Bean Project, and it kind of took off when I got out. But I had also put all my savings into that, and I actually had sold my car and put the money from the car into that. So I kind of like, put all my eggs in one basket with that.

Unknown 00:15:41:08 00:16:04:01,And we were living with my ex's dad. So we were able to do that because we didn't have rent and he was helping us with food and everything. He was helping us transition. So I'm so thankful for my ex's dad because he really helped us a lot. Some things went down with me and my ex like won't go into much in the detail of that, but we broke up and then I was left on my own and I had given away all my money.

Unknown 00:16:04:02 00:16:20:09,So that's when I started stripping. Okay. And that's kind of like how I got into sex work was that was like the transition. What was your thought process when you're like, were you just like, I have nothing to my like, I'm alone and I got to figure out how to do it. Like I have it. Like I'm like, I am a mom.

Unknown 00:16:20:09 00:16:38:13,Like I gotta fucking figure out quick. Like, yeah, I mean, I also am pretty, like, I didn't want to reach out to my family and burden them kind of thing, because my family has already been through so much with my brother and stuff. So I was like, okay, I got to figure this the fuck out, like I got to do this.

Unknown 00:16:38:13 00:16:57:20,And so I went and did my first shift and I made like, I think I made like $5,000 or something, like, I feel that shit crazy, you know, how to dance like actual do moves on the pole. Are you just like, dance because I'm pretty sexual. So like, I think that and I'm good at talking about, okay, I have the gift of the guy.

Unknown 00:16:57:21 00:17:09:21,Yeah. No, you're very good. Yeah, yeah. So I just went and talked to the fucking guys. I'll tell them. I'm like. I'm like, I just got a marine Corps. Like, that's hot. And I'm like, give me your money.

Unknown 00:17:09:23 00:17:29:12,Give me your fucking money or I'll beat your ass up. But that is funny. Yeah. So how long did you do the stripping for? Not very long. Like maybe six months. Okay. It was, you know, like how we were talking about earlier. You got to try it all and figure out what you like and don't like. And I met my boyfriend now from when I was a stripper.

Unknown 00:17:29:12 00:17:42:23,So he was at the strip club. Yeah. And then you were like, you're kind of cute. I was like, I'm not making any money tonight because I'm going to just go talk to that guy all night. That's that's that's cute. That's actually cute. So how long have you been with your boyfriend, if you don't mind me asking? Oh, five years.

Unknown 00:17:42:23 00:18:03:01,Five years. And you are a content creator. So how long have you. Sorry. How long have you all do together? 12 years. Oh, shit. Yeah, yeah. We married. Married nine. Married nine in May. But I've known him since I'm six years old. And he was nine, so he was my neighbor. He was my brother's friend. So, like I've known.

Unknown 00:18:03:02 00:18:22:17,Have you guys always worked really well together like this? No, because I feel like. Have we always worked well together? I mean, like like, business wise. Oh, did it take some, like, adjusting a lot? Yeah. That's where me and my boyfriend were at, like last year. We were like, maybe we shouldn't have worked together. And now we're like, no, it's just a flow for for couples out there.

Unknown 00:18:22:17 00:18:39:23,I think it's, you're different people. Like, I'm the crazy entrepreneur idea, like visionary type. And I get shit done and, like, I don't even know how to kick my ass for me to do something. Yeah, I need a push. Yeah, okay. I need a lot. I think she's a great manager. Once she sees the money and then, like, I don't see the money.

Unknown 00:18:40:00 00:18:56:11,You're money. Yeah, but. But even then, you know, I'm the one growing and expanding the businesses. I'm the one who put either way, I don't want her to work like I work. I want like I want her to work, you know, a little bit here and there and then enjoy the rest of the day, you know? That's cool.

Unknown 00:18:56:12 00:19:22:14,I'm the work slave, I would say. But no, it took some time to get adjusted. Yeah. I also think that because we're we're together all creators. We're together all the time. The podcast is at home. It's a lot more content because we just work together. Right? When it comes to content, it's just me and him. So we're doing content together, then kids, then I still have a house to maintain.

Unknown 00:19:22:19 00:19:45:00,It's because country move countries. Like the last two years, I've been absolutely fucking wild, you know, with our our other rental because of what we do. Then we had to find a house. So we find this house, but our interest rate is like through the fucking 9.5 renovations. So. Sorry. So yeah, it's it's been it's been like wild.

Unknown 00:19:45:03 00:20:06:12,And it's funny because this week I'm like, I need I need a break. Dude, I need you to listen to that I do. Yeah. And just like I, I'm sure tempered because everything bothers me right now. And. But like I told myself, it was yesterday, I was like, tomorrow, I'm not going to get everything in. I'm not going to scream.

Unknown 00:20:06:12 00:20:28:18,I'm just gonna let you flow. And then, you know, deal with the next day. Easier. Is that than. Yeah, yeah. But yeah. No, it's it's been good so far. Yeah, yeah. We need a night out to know. Yeah. Like date, date night. Yeah. So we work well together now. And we also know, like, we actually got we separated our offices.

Unknown 00:20:28:19 00:20:44:04,Oh, that was the best thing. That was the best thing. Because it's like if I'm doing my work and then I hear his stuff, like, you know, and then we're sitting. Sometimes I just want to be alone. And he feels like I always want to be alone, but I'm never alone. So I always ask to be alone, you know what I mean?

Unknown 00:20:44:05 00:20:59:17,But I get it. I get I'm the same way sometimes. Like you need your space. I need my space. And that's okay. You know, like I got shit to do. You got shit to do. And then after that, we come back and we see. So. Okay, so you met your boyfriend at the strip club, and then you transition into content creation.

Unknown 00:20:59:19 00:21:18:09,Yeah, well, I was already camming when I met him, so I was stripping and camming. I'm a I am one thing about me as I'm a workaholic, okay? I've always had two jobs. Like I've never, never, never once just done one thing. And it's funny, like we're kind of opposite because my boyfriend is more like chill, like he is a hard worker, but he needs that push.

Unknown 00:21:18:10 00:21:40:04,Push. Yeah. So it's kind of I think that's a good balance to have because otherwise if it's to work all the it's easy for sure, it's all your life is after. Exactly. Yeah. So did you start making content with him? No, I was just solo. And so I actually had a little bit of a following on Instagram because I was interviewed for being like the first female in artillery or whatever.

Unknown 00:21:40:05 00:22:05:19,So all these guys from the military following me. Oh, okay. So and I'm posting the just military shit. Yeah. Then and then I'm posting happy being coffee shop nonprofit wholesome as. Yeah. Yeah. Right. Yeah. Look at my tits. I fucking bake like 20 k the first month and just selling screensavers. Wow. So it was just pictures of me in a bikini and like, I put, like, you know, like Instagram.

Unknown 00:22:05:19 00:22:24:10,You can put the little sticker. So I put the sticker on Instagram. I said, DM me if you want me to take the sticker off. Okay. And then I it was all through Venmo and my Venmo got deleted. Oh for sure. So then I started doing PayPal. Then my PayPal got deleted. So then I'm like, fuck. And I'm like, okay, what other kind of like because like I'm like this online stuff.

Unknown 00:22:24:10 00:22:47:00,This is, this is where the real money that. And so I'm like okay. And so I like look up like ways to make money online as a sex worker or something. And chatter came up. So then I started chatter baiting and killed it on that. Loved it. I still chatter bait to this day. And then I met my boyfriend.

Unknown 00:22:47:01 00:23:07:05,Okay. Yeah. And then did you ever make any content with him? Not for. No. He was like, real. He's like. He was like, no, I'm not making contact. Like, fuck no. Okay. But how does he feel? Because you do work with other men. How does he feel about that? Okay, so that didn't happen for a while. Okay. I had to like, we kind of.

Unknown 00:23:07:07 00:23:28:03,We did break up, actually, because I, I have cheated on every single boyfriend that I've ever had. So. And then I meet Jose and I like same with like my, my ex like I like love these men. Like the last three guys I've dated, I like, feel like we're all true love. And I still cheated. So like bitch with the fuck like, get it together.

Unknown 00:23:28:08 00:23:48:01,Let's dig into this. Why do you cheat? I think I am not wired for monogamy. Okay, so I finally am old enough to finally realize that there are people out there that are not monogamous. And that's okay. Agreed? Agreed. Yeah. I said, I'm like, finally. Like, it was very liberating for me. But my boyfriend is wired for monogamy.

Unknown 00:23:48:02 00:24:09:16,Okay. So that conversation was tough and we did break up for like a day. He went to his mom's, he's like, I'm done. And then the next day he's like, okay, we can try. I want to be back together with you. I'm like, okay, yes. And like, that's the thing about like, Jose, like, this man loves me. He's like, he's the only person who's fully accepted me for who I am.

Unknown 00:24:09:17 00:24:36:01,That's awesome. Like, flaws and everything. And I feel like I say, yeah, he's he's the shit. So. Yeah. Okay, so now you guys are going to open relationship. Yeah. So now like zoom five years later like we're doing this. This guy I was like is doing content. His dick is on Twitter. Like no way Jose. Exactly. So you sleep with other men.

Unknown 00:24:36:01 00:24:57:06,Does he sleep with other women? No. Yeah, but he's the thing about him. He's not that much of a hard worker. Right? So, like, he's not going to go out for try to find a girl. Yeah. Like he's cool. Like he's wired from Manami. He would totally be fine with just fucking me. But I am a cook, so I'm like, I like, want to see him with other women.

Unknown 00:24:57:06 00:25:04:00,So whenever we do like content houses, that's usually when he'll like. Whenever I'm hosting stuff, he'll join in.

Unknown 00:25:04:06 00:25:21:19,So. Okay. So so you say he doesn't go out of his way, but when it comes to you, do you go out of your way or do you just do it with the people that you work with? No. I'm like, yeah, I love sex with new people. Okay. Like that's my like kink. Okay. So how does this happen?

Unknown 00:25:21:20 00:25:39:03,Like, how does this work? You're going to go out with some girlfriends, meet a guy. Oh, no. Nothing. This is all porn, okay? Because like, in real life, people aren't tested and shit. Yeah, I know, that's very. Yeah. Like, trust me, that's the best. Yeah, but then like, like I. It's a high risk. It's such a high risk.

Unknown 00:25:39:04 00:26:02:00,It really is. But it is the funnest I wouldn't know I'm a prude. I'm a virgin. So. So you, you know, like when you're at a bar and you, like, make eye contact and then you start shooting and then you're dancing and, like, giggle, giggle and then boom, it's like, yes, but that's the thing. It's like when when you're younger, you don't think of like it's not your first thought, like the consequence.

Unknown 00:26:02:01 00:26:24:04,Does this person have something or whatever? Now it's like, now that you're in the industry, I feel like you're more cautious of that, obviously, because, you know, if you're filming with people left and right or like, you can't even do that, it's putting everybody else in. Exactly. I know, sorry, but I know a guy who was a virgin until he was like 24 and we were doing everything for him to, you know, get laid first.

Unknown 00:26:24:04 00:26:51:06,Got it. First girl he, he sleeps with, he gets herpes. So, so that's why protect. So you got to wrap it. Dude, I was I don't know what. Sleeping with so many people. I never got anything. My whole. That's freaking awesome. Yeah, I know, still to this day think the load. Yeah. My goodness. All right, so, when did you realize, like, you're doing chatter bait, you're selling pictures?

Unknown 00:26:51:06 00:27:14:08,When did you transition to off? I think I did have off the whole time from when I even wasn't. I always kind of forget because people ask me this question a lot, but I kind of forget like how I started off. Okay, but did it do good? Like, right away? I think I made it way more from selling like straight really like to it because, I mean, then they're not taking the 20%.

Unknown 00:27:14:09 00:27:40:22,Exactly. But yeah, OnlyFans has always been like a steady growth. I've always been at 1.2%. Okay, that's like what I'm at, okay? Like I can't get better than that. You can't get. No, don't say that. No, I will get better. It took me don't subscribe I am we I, we were at like two three for a while and then now we're at 0.38 between 0.29.

Unknown 00:27:40:22 00:27:54:22,And when I see the three I'm like, fuck yeah. Like we need to get it back to a two, you know? Yes, but it does fuck with your head a little. It does. I mean whatever sometimes I don't. I have this thing where I need to go see how much I've made, like every single day. You know what I mean?

Unknown 00:27:54:22 00:28:13:19,Just to like. That's actually good. Is it? Yeah. Some people say it's not good to billionaires. Multimillionaires everyday. You got a chicken account, you gotta check your numbers. Making money. So you got money. King to. Yeah. I think a lot of us in the industry have a money king. Yeah, like there's money. Turn you on. Absolutely. Same for sure.

Unknown 00:28:13:20 00:28:29:20,I'm hard right now just thinking about it. Okay, so the happy bean project. Are you still doing that? Yes. Okay. So how's that going? And that's what I love about, like, porn too, because I'm able to, like, do a lot more than I used to with the coffee shops. So I had coffee shops that were funding my project.

Unknown 00:28:29:21 00:28:56:08,The project is to bring people in need clothing, food and hygiene products. So yeah, the coffee shop was funding it. Then the people I left and charge to run the coffee shop started getting pretty like. Basically I told them I was overpaying them and that more needed to go to the outreach, okay. And they didn't like that. And so they took the whole concept of the project and moved it down the street.

Unknown 00:28:56:08 00:29:17:07,And they actually used the non-profits name to start a Go Fund Me that was going into their bank account, which is very illegal. And, yeah. So it was like this big deal. I ended up having to sell the coffee shops and now it's just all funded through porn. Oh, wow. Yeah. So people are so fucking malicious, I hate people.

Unknown 00:29:17:08 00:29:36:12,Yeah. And of course, they're like this cute couple that I like, really loved. Like, I genuinely cared about these people. Hopefully their coffee shop is killing it and they are in a better place now. And that's it. Yeah. But just wish them well. That's all you could do. Exactly. Yeah. Your karmic system will take care of it. Exactly.

Unknown 00:29:36:13 00:29:59:15,And so now we go once a month and we bring like about around $1,000 worth of donations to people in need. And yeah, I keep it more on the down low now because I did have a volunteer that got like soccer ish, soccer ish sock soccer. Soccer ish. Yeah, yeah, my address online. And he posted like my kid's name online.

Unknown 00:29:59:16 00:30:25:02,Why do people do that? People have to be so miserable and like, just I don't understand what would make somebody want to do that. Like, I know it just baffles me. He wasn't the only fans fan to. And I was like, I was mixing business and the personal in the project too much because I was like, oh, like I could tell my fans about, like my project and they'll donate and I can get more supplies for the homeless.

Unknown 00:30:25:03 00:30:44:09,Yeah. And like, I can get the guys to volunteer. And I was just like, thinking of it, so nice. But they're not. Yeah. So now I don't tell anybody. I only have three volunteers that I trust, and we're the only ones that go out, even try to grow it anymore. Even even when you like, post stories or whatever.

Unknown 00:30:44:10 00:30:59:19,Like I'm never going to post a story when I'm actually there. Yeah, exactly. You know what I mean? Like, especially with what we do, we need to be careful because people, you know, they could be obsessed with you, you don't know about it. And then just something, you know. Yeah. And I don't know, I have cameras in my house now because of this.

Unknown 00:30:59:20 00:31:23:11,I have cameras in my house. I have cameras outside my house. I have guns, so. Yeah. Do not fucking with me. Okay, so she was in the marine, so she knows. Yeah. Okay. So you have these slut whisperer. The. What is it? This is a successful, successful sled podcast. So tell us a little bit about that. So basically when people come over to my house to collab I'll do like a little it's like one third of this.

Unknown 00:31:23:12 00:31:37:05,We usually do like 15 minutes okay. Like a 15, 30 minute talk. And we just use that for of TV. And I can get to know who I'm going to work with a little bit before to go. So that's that's nice. So you do it before you do the actual shooting. Yes. Oh that's what I like. Breaks the ice.

Unknown 00:31:37:06 00:31:58:23,Yes. That's really cool. That's smart. Yeah I like it a lot. And it gives all like the safer work stuff and all that. So yeah. Because with what we do a lot of the websites now are leaning towards safer work. Even the hub has a safer work section now for podcasts like we upload there as well. So that's really that's really cool.

Unknown 00:31:59:00 00:32:20:10,Who would you like to interview on your pod? Oh, like if I could get anybody. Alexis. Are you. Yeah. Well, duh. You guys just interviewed a girl that I really love, and I'm forgetting her freaking name right now, but she's the biggest hits ever. Karina. Kova. No more avalanche. Such a sweetheart. I love her like, her energy is so good.

Unknown 00:32:20:11 00:32:38:17,It is. And she just. She. She talks about mental health a lot with people. She's also bipolar. Oh, yeah. Yeah, she's from North Carolina. Yeah, she's just a sweetie pie, so I would love to interview her. There's like, oh my God, the list goes on, goes on. She said something that I'm never going to forget, and I use it because I was like I was talking to her.

Unknown 00:32:38:18 00:32:59:22,Obviously her tits are like, you can't miss them, right? Massive. And she put them on my head. That should wait a lot. I don't know if you saw like that real of her putting them on top. No, she did it to me too. I was so heavy. Yes. That's why you're both like. We both have neck problems. Yeah, you're both like this when you look at, you know, that she was heavy.

Unknown 00:32:59:22 00:33:21:12,And then it's funny because Teddy messaged me. He's like, is your neck okay? And I'm like, yeah, that's why I got the chiropractor for something like that. But she's super nice. But she said, because I'm like, you know, obviously people look at you and like, what do you know? What do you say to your kids or whatever? She says, I tell my kids that everybody is different, and that's okay.

Unknown 00:33:21:17 00:33:41:13,I like and that is something that, you know, like my kids too. Mommy, why is this person, like, everybody's different, baby. And that's okay. Exactly. Like, it literally just ends the conversation right there without having to go into like, crazy details or anything like that. Alrighty. So we talk about the being we talked about. Oh, wait, wait, there was one thing I wanted to ask you.

Unknown 00:33:41:14 00:34:05:08,Yes, that we don't want to forget. So you promote your fans, Lee, a lot. So tell us why, please. Yes. So my fan base, like my two niches, is squirting and milk lactating. Oh, yeah. Yeah, I forgot about that. Sure. That that we didn't forget that one. Yes. Okay, so.

Unknown 00:34:05:10 00:34:09:13,Oh, but for your guys's editors and stuff. Because.

Unknown 00:34:09:13 00:34:18:17,Do you guys post this on of TV? Yes. Okay. Maybe take this part out. Oh, yeah, they know, because anything with milk, your only fans will get deleted.

Unknown 00:34:18:19 00:34:34:22,Okay. Yeah. I don't want anybody to count. That's why my account keeps getting deleted. Because I even just sang it. And all my fans know about that. I do it that I'm lactate. And so they'll, like, always type like milk and like, so I'm like flagged because of that. And it's annoying. But yeah, I don't know.

Unknown 00:34:34:22 00:34:57:19,I just have like a hormone imbalance or something like the doctors don't know why, but not even your fault. Yeah, I just have it. That is wild. Yes. So it's been years since you had your your kids and you still have milk in there? Yes. But like, apparently it's, like, really good for other people. Okay. Like bodybuilders drink it and lately it helps.

Unknown 00:34:57:20 00:35:12:09,Do you sell it? No. So I don't make that much. Okay. It's just a little. Just a little little. Yeah. Because I remember when I had milk in there, I would just go in the show, remember? And I was like.

Unknown 00:35:12:11 00:35:33:11,I love that. Yes. Have you tried it once? Yeah. But it's. Yeah. It's sweet. It's good. Apparently it tastes like camels. Milk is what someone said. I wouldn't know that. I'm like, how do you know that? Yeah. No. So okay, so you, you have more freedom to do that on fancy. Yes. Fancy. You can do whatever you can P on fancy.

Unknown 00:35:33:11 00:35:52:17,Really? Yeah. Everything. Yeah. There's no I've heard of that, that there's not many limitations. Even public public stuff like off has an issue with that. I've invested like a lot of money into this yacht club that I did, and I can't even post that on because it's like public, you know, you did that recently, right? Yeah, I think I saw that, yeah.

Unknown 00:35:52:17 00:36:13:17,So I just love fancy because you don't have to worry about what you're going to say. Like there's like less rules there. Awesome. Okay. Well that's good. So if anyone has a fetish, good. You know, you know where to go. We can resume. Okay. So now we're not going to talk about milk anymore. And boobies, right? Yeah. Okay.

Unknown 00:36:13:18 00:36:36:19,We're not. Okay. So when I saw you at this year, you told me you're going to go back into mainstream. Yes. So tell us a little bit about that and why you decided to go back. Yeah. So I went back literally Monday. Yeah. Yeah. So there I'm back. And the thing about mainstream here in Florida is like, they always have to have you like, fuck a family member.

Unknown 00:36:36:21 00:37:01:09,Oh, it's all like the step. Step. Yeah, yeah. And I'm like, I could definitely do without that. You don't like the step fetish play? No. I felt so good though. It's so true. It's always. And like the step does really good. The like mommy role play does really good obviously like daddy role play does good to. And so it is what it is like I get like human brains.

Unknown 00:37:01:10 00:37:21:15,Like they want to feel like you're doing something like you're not supposed to. That's the turn on for it. So like that, I just have come to the conclusion that that is what it is and it's fine. But yeah, I'm back at it and I'm super happy I missed it. I did stop because of my boyfriend. Okay. Because we just he was just like, dude, you're traveling all the time.

Unknown 00:37:21:16 00:37:43:14,Like, I never get to see you. He also doesn't really want his family to find out. And he in his head, like, the more mainstream I do that more. More dance. Yes and no. Because in this and age, like your IG is public, anybody can find you. Do you do your parents, you do they. I think his family knows because they never ask about our work.

Unknown 00:37:43:16 00:38:05:07,Really. Like like we're living a pretty fucking world going, well, you know, we are doing shit they know. And they're like, yeah. They never ask, like usually. Did you say, like, how? So how's work been? Like, I've never gotten that question. Really? Yeah. Well that's good. So I think they know that's better. Yeah. Oh, wow. And my dad knows.

Unknown 00:38:05:13 00:38:27:03,I know he knows because, I blocked all of my family. Yeah, obviously. But I forgot to block my step mom's daughter. Oh. So I see her seeing. I went and, like, was checking my stories. Yeah. And I see her little face, like her little circle. I'm like, oh, shit. So then I know, like, I know for a fact that means that my stepmom knows.

Unknown 00:38:27:03 00:38:42:09,Yeah. So I actually kind of like distance myself from my dad and my stepmom because I was embarrassed, not embarrassed, but I just didn't want to have that conversation and I didn't know how they would feel about it. Like, my dad is like, grew up like we grew up super Christian and stuff. So I was like, I didn't know.

Unknown 00:38:42:09 00:39:04:12,And then I finally, like, she called me one day the the my stepmom, okay? And she's like, honey, you've just been like really distant. Like, we really miss you, like, what's going on? And I'm just like, well, I just, I know you guys know what I do for work, and I just feel so awkward about it. And like, I didn't know how to, like, bring it up with you guys to you guys and stuff.

Unknown 00:39:04:15 00:39:21:02,They're like, honey, like, we love you no matter what. Like, we support you no matter what. Like, it was so awesome. And I never had that conversation. Dad. Okay. So, like, it was all with, like, my stepmom was like the middle man and, like, okay, so obviously he knew your dad. Yeah. Okay. Well that's amazing. Yeah, that's really good.

Unknown 00:39:21:03 00:39:38:01,And he treats me like I'm his daughter. Like. Exactly. Yeah. Yeah, yeah. And I don't have daddy issues that all the whatever. Yeah. Everybody always. Yeah. Only fan. She's got daddy issues. Actually I have mommy issues okay.

Unknown 00:39:38:03 00:40:02:16,That's a conversation for another time. No not really, but okay. So I'm going to ask you some fire rapid questions okay. Rapid fire questions. So nothing crazy. You just answer real quick. Coffee or energy drinks? Neither. What do you drink? Matcha. Don't eat me. I've never had a mantra, so I don't even know. It's not good. It's not, I know why is everybody going crazy?

Unknown 00:40:02:16 00:40:22:22,For the reason I drink is because coffee. Like, I kind of got burnt out after having coffee shops and it gives me anxiety. Or matcha like, is like a chill energy, really. So it's a less of a spike of caffeine. Yeah, it's like a caffeine. It's like tying or tightening or something. It's because it's the actual leaf of the tea that's blended.

Unknown 00:40:22:23 00:40:40:09,Oh, it's better for you. So you have other stuff in there then. Just like the juices of the coffee bean. Interesting. Okay. Beach or mountains? Beach? Same morning or night? Morning. Same favorite curse word? Fuck. Biggest pet peeve? Rude people.

Unknown 00:40:40:12 00:40:43:17,The last show you binged?

Unknown 00:40:43:18 00:41:01:07,Oh, Love Island. Really? I've never gotten into that. I never got into that. No, I probably not. I just watched before you. I don't know if you got one. I'm on the last episode. I like it, but it gives me, like, a feeling in my stomach when I'm watching it. It's I in my opinion, it's very woke. Yeah.

Unknown 00:41:01:07 00:41:23:09,You know, and I feel like everything is becoming a bit too woke. Yeah. And it's not even true. Yeah. Yeah. So. Okay. Sweeter. Salty. Both tattoos are no tattoos. You got tattoo's, but on a guy tats. So my boyfriend doesn't have you like, big tats or small tats? I don't know, like, I don't really care, I guess I like big he's he's he's doing.

Unknown 00:41:23:09 00:41:30:07,Yeah. He's just the word as tits, not big tats.

Unknown 00:41:30:09 00:41:54:01,I was so sad. Was so slow. Like, oh, that's, I've been with him for 12 years. I know what he's doing. I know his jokes. One thing you're obsessing with right now. Oh, one thing I have. This is hard to be. Rapid fire, big tats, girls, girls. Dream vacation. Oh, probably just go back to Thailand again.

Unknown 00:41:54:02 00:42:18:11,Thailand? Yeah. So freaking long to get there. No. God, I don't know how people do that. Me to first class stop. Apparently, first class is like $20,000. If I can dial in. I looked it up on my damn phone. I was like, bitch. And how that happened? And they're like, oh man, they just. I think it's because I had I came home like a couple days early, so I had to pay double okay to change my flight.

Unknown 00:42:18:12 00:42:37:14,So my flight actually was around like 8000 like for between the two flights. Oh man. I think they're like this. This girl did pay a good amount. Like that's upgrader. That's freaking going back as well. We're just going, going back. Okay. Oh, man. Whatever. Imagine you have, like a 20 hour flight. I don't know how long it is.

Unknown 00:42:37:15 00:42:54:04,And then you get to fucking first class. That's freaking awesome. Now I'm like, I can't go back. I don't I can't be crouched up like a dinosaur. I always, always book the bigger seats. Okay? Like if I'm going back to see family in Montreal, there's no first class. It's no, there is a business. It's business. So it's a lot bigger.

Unknown 00:42:54:04 00:43:01:05,But for a 3.5 hour flight, like I'd rather pay 500 than 2500. Yeah, right. Like, I'm not that picky.

Unknown 00:43:01:05 00:43:10:04,I want to go to Greece, right? I'm Greek, and I told him, like I am not going if I'm not in first class, okay?

Unknown 00:43:10:05 00:43:29:02,Like I need a bed. I love that it's been working 24 seven since then. If you do it, it's like 13 hours from here. But if I go to Montreal, let's say to go see family and then go there, it's nine. Yeah. So, you know, it's not bad. All right. That's going to happen. Yeah. Yeah it is. Oh definitely.

Unknown 00:43:29:04 00:43:48:05,Most embarrassing moment falling down the stairs at Carmine High School when I was in when I was in I, when I was in high school I probably would have laughed at you. I laugh when people get hurt. I'm sorry. What's one thing people would never guess about you?

Unknown 00:43:48:07 00:44:04:02,I don't know, you don't know. I feel like I'm like so transparent. Well that's good. Yeah. What do you think Marine Abby would say to you now bitch. Just like become a slut sooner.

Unknown 00:44:04:04 00:44:19:16,Okay. And so close it off. I want to talk about your book. You are writing a book about your life. So tell us a little bit about that. Yes. I wrote a book about my life. Damn. And it's almost done. Like it is done. I just have, like a couple more edits, like I want to read out through, like, maybe one more time.

Unknown 00:44:19:18 00:44:41:23,And yeah, it's all out there. We're gonna where are you going to put it on Amazon. Yeah, Amazon. And they not like tell it to my fans. Nice. Yeah a hardcover. Yeah. Like I hired a publisher and stuff. Okay, nice. Okay. So when it does come out, I want you to sign me one, and then I'll send it to me and I'll pay you obviously.

Unknown 00:44:42:01 00:44:58:17,No, no, I will. You get both free. No, I'm going to support I bought Teddy Tarantino's book and then he came on the pot and I made him. So I want to. I want to read his book, too. It's good, it's good. I didn't finish it. Fuck. I'm so bad. I started a book and I never finished saying, like, I'm gonna, you know, go through.

Unknown 00:44:58:17 00:45:17:05,And then there's like a third left, and I just never get to it, like, you know, and I just bought I literally got it this morning. Supernatural. Okay. From Joe Dispenza. Okay. So that's like how you can heal your body and all that kind of fun stuff. And I'm like, I need to finish the book that I started.

Unknown 00:45:17:06 00:45:43:04,Yeah, to get to this one, because then in my mind, it's just going to be all messed up. Yes. Yeah. Abby, thank you so much for coming. This is great. Thank you. Thank you for having me. Of course. Anytime, anytime. You're back. You want to come back, you know, let's do it. So to follow Abby Rose, your IG handle, is it literally it's it's Abby Ross.

Unknown 00:45:43:06 00:45:54:07,Main. Main. Yes, it's Abby rose main. So give her a follow and get her book when it comes out. Yes. All right. See you guys next week. Peace.